The months of September 2010- November, parts of December 2010 
undoubtedly can be summed up perfectly with many of
my favored musicians at the time and of all time. 
As for myself, weird as it may seem to some,
I keep a book where I write them all down when
feeling a very special fit to my life, and current
burdens, even emotional epiphanies. 
The great and the difficult. 
all seemingly beautiful and gratifying bridges to 
have crossed.


however, at the puny times, segments and songs such as these few
expressed me more than I could have.




---seven a.m.,
the garbage truck beeps as it backs up
and I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse signifying the end but I missed the best part.
Could we please go back to start?

Forgive my indecision

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side.
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

eleven a.m.,
by now you would think that I would be up
but my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made.
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
'cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in
that old fear.

Forgive my indecision... I am only a man

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side.
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope it's you. 
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Have you ever tried to step in my shoes
Will you ever try to balance that beam
And if you ever try to fit in my shoes,
They'll never be quite as soft as they seemed. 

Incubus; Morning View. "have you ever"